Friday, January 11, 2008

"It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache..."

Hey there,

How's tricks?

Stops the ache? It's a bit of a dramatic title for a blog post, but some days...? Ack, I don't know :) I'm feeling pretty chuffed at the mo and I think it's to do with going out. No, not going down the pub or taking a wander around the shops - but 'out' out. It's been a while since I've been to visit the Ladies at NottsChams. It is over a month - may be even six weeks - since I've dressed (what with family and work commitments). Anyhoo, it's going to be a bit longer before I get 'meh skit on' (as some may say), but... and this is the thing I cannot explain, just going out (even in Bob mode) to Chams the other night did me the world of good.

I'll be honest with you and say I was beginning to feel the pressure a little. You know, that tightness in your head. The one that feels a bit like a miniature thunderstorm building up. It ebbs and flows but it never goes away. There's only one thing that'll truly switch if off. Makes me sound like an addict doesn't it? :-)

If I think about it logically (Ed: Analysis Spock!) it makes no sense... well other than I get to socialise with people who know who am I and it doesn't bother them. Are we back to a sense of belonging? I don't know. If anyone does, answers on a postcard to the usual inbox. :)

We also had a visitor - well a number of visitors at Chams the other night. A few new faces (Beth, Rachel and Sophie (??)) as well as a young lady from a nearby university. She was studying a media course she came along to ask a few questions; research to make a programme for her degree. It won't be for broadcast, so no risk from cameras and I hope she got something out of the evening. She was genuinely interested and I got to have a quick word with her. I'd love to be a fly-on-the-wall when she gives the presentation. I wonder how she'll look back at the evening in years to come? Who can say eh?

Funny but having someone come along who has no vested interest - not TG nor a partner - it is kinda hard to explain why we do what we do. I guess we've come full circle eh? We're back to the need to do it. For me, and I can only speak of my own feelings, it is the requirement for balance. I need to have time to be both blokey and... ummm... not so blokey. :) I hesitate to say girlie because that makes me sound about 12.


Now the media fluff of Christmas specials has faded away, we're into a new season of programmes. BBC4 are currently running a series on pop music. I've caught the odd episode and from what I've seen there's been some good and some bad. The other night had one on the what makes a good pop song. It was more than a collection of talking heads giving their 'top five hits'. Instead we had both musical, lyrical and analysis of the performance.

I really enjoy music and my tastes are... mixed shall we say. Maybe it's the failed poet (!!) in me, but lyrics are my thing. Sometimes a segment of a song will just jump out at you - if lyrics can jump that is - and while I don't think we'll find the meaning of life in the Top 40, there are little gems: the odd verse or phrase that seems to speak to you.

Take care

[ Today's lyric.... man, I'm started to repeat. :-) Duality by Slipknot. Who says thrashers can't be poetic? :)]


  1. I find comfort in lyrics as well, though most go back a bit further than you might believe (although "Santa Lost a Ho" has brought some joy the last two holiday seasons).

    Sometimes I wonder where the answers to this quiz we call life are hidden, you aren't the only one!

    But then, were I to find them and answer all the questions, I'd be done and I'm not sure I want to be just yet!


  2. Alan > I won't pry if you don't want to give away your (lyrical) sources. :)

    If we did have all the answers, would you be disappointed or elated knowing the point behind it all? Still, if 'So-crates'* et al didn't sus it - what chance do we have?

    (* Socrates, Bill & Ted's Excellent Adventure)

  3. Ah, the Thunderstorm, I know it well! Horrible thing that won't go away no matter how many other things you have to worry about.

  4. I'm so glad it's not just me who gets this! :) On the brightside, it's not long until the next meeting with the NottsChams ladies.